Saturday, June 25, 2011

A Thank You Note

There is someone I haven't thanked. I don't care what you think about him. I am not writing this to offend anyone. This blog post is just for him. All that matters is what I think about him. I love him. He has helped me through this journey more than anyone else has. He has been there for me when I am weak and when I am strong. When I am weak he makes me stronger and when I am strong he keeps me going. All too often I forget to say thank you to him for being there. I often hide him away or keep him in the shadows. I definitely don't always listen to what he has to say. Its okay though because he is very forgiving. More forgiving than anyone else I know. This is why I trust in him. He is always there for me. He has always believed in me even when I didn't believe in him. He never gives up on me and makes it so I can't give up on myself either. He is the ultimate coach and motivator. He is God and I would be a fool not to thank him for my life and what he has done for me. So: You know who you are and you know what you did and I thank you. I promise to read that book you wrote more often. =)

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Falling off the wagon

Well, its true I did fall off just a little. For like two days and now I am back on but I will say that apparently according to several very helpful people this was not my fault. I can blame it all on that time of the month. Thank goodness. I mean I went on a ridiculous killer psycho binge on Monday and then Tuesday was just not healthy. Yesterday was better. I have also not felt much like exercising these past few days. Battling a serious drain of energy and a bit of eater's remorse/depression. I am however going to get back into the pool this morning not matter what! It seems like exercise always makes me more conscious of my health and what I am consuming. I mean who wants to spoil all that hard work with a burger. ( I want to, but only sometimes). I was also told by several people that I need to focus more on having protein at every meal and this should help curb the cravings. Lately, like the past month or so, I have been hungrier than normal and it is difficult to resist that extra handful of almonds or another sandwich. I think I am going to have to start getting serious about weighing and measuring my food. I might actually be under-serving myself and that might be why I am hungry. Well all I can say is onward and forward. I am back on the wagon, I am sure I will fall off some more but hey at least I keep getting back on!

Monday, June 13, 2011

Too fat to run?

Well yes I am, apparently. I decided to give a training program called Couch to 5K (a.k.a. C25K) a shot last night. Week one consists of 3 times a week you walk 5 minutes, then jog 60 seconds then walk 90 seconds until you have hit 20 minutes and I was able to jog only about 3 times before my ankles felt like they were going to pop off of my legs. Oh and I was out of breath alot (but I am pretty sure that is from the smoking). It wasn't easy to admit to myself that I couldn't do this thing last night. I think I will try again on Tuesday and just do as much as I can and finish with walking. I am not going to over-exercise but I really want to be able to run a 5K someday. I want to participate in fundraising walk/runs and I want to be able to support my friends and family members by running in the Susan G. Komen run, a diabetes run of some sort and even an Alzheimer's run in honor of my grandfather if there is even something like that around here.  My whole point is that I want to learn to run these things so that I can use that skill to raise money and support for some very important organizations that deserve it.

So right now I am going to keep at doing week one until I can do it all the way through completely without stopping and with doing the intervals correctly and efficiently. I think I might invest in a camel pack so I don't have to feel dehydrated and thirsty while I run. I guess this also one more reason I really need to quit smoking pronto! Anyway, if any of you have suggestions about exercises I can do or a different routine/schedule I can do to work on running please let me know. I would greatly appreciate any info you have and are willing to share.

On another note: I am forty pounds down! I am so happy to have come this far. I feel SO much better. When I lose 2.5 more pounds I will be at the 1/4 of the way mark through my weight loss journey! How exciting.

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Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Cats and other things

So this has been a really rough week for me. Quitting smoking is hard and I am doing my best but I am struggling. It seems like the moment I decide to do something positive in my life the stress train rolls into to town in a big way. I have gotten some disturbing news from the doctor, but don't worry it isn't life threatening and there is nothing that can be done. (Stressor #1). I am still searching for a teaching job and the state of Texas is doing it's best to ensure I never get one anywhere near where all of my friends and family and myself have lived for years. (Stressor #2). My weight is yo-yoing like crazy and I have no idea how much I have actually gained or lost in the past few days (Stressor #3). My grandmother is going in for surgery tomorrow and might not make it (Stressor #4). I could go on and on but then I would feel like I'm whining. Don't worry about me though because I am staying strong and I am not going to let anything beat me. In terms of success I am down to ten cigarettes a day versus a pack a day I was smoking. Progress is progress and come hell or high water I will be smoke free by my birthday!

I have been pretty faithful working out and I spent a good part of yesterday outside doing yard work and gardening. Tonight I am going to go see CATS, an Andrew Lloyd Webber  musical, with my mom. I think it will be alot of fun and it will be a nice reward for losing 39 pounds. I am still hoping it will be sixty total by my birthday. All in all I am doing my best and that is all anyone can ask of you. I really want to get back in the pool soon though. I need to mix it up again. I am getting bored of walking and aerobics in front of the television.